The Nonpartisan
Why is it that all the important life lessons and sound advice that you get from your parents and guardians you choose to ignore when you're young? I have been given a whole lot of wonderful tid bits and nuggets of knowledge throughout my life and for years it seems the advice has fallen short of my young, deaf, ears.
Now and again when I make a mistake or I have a moment where I regret a decision that I have hastily made I hear my mother's voice mocking me, "I told you so!"
When my mother told me at the age of 16, "these are the best days of your life kido so enjoy them now!"
I thought to myself with a heartfelt cringe, "if these are the best days of my life I want to be struck by a bus right this very minute!"
Dramatic? Yes but I always had quite the theatrical flare and especially so when I was 16.
Being an adult isn't as great as my adolescent mind once thought it would be but it also isn't as boring and conformist as I thought it would end up either. I have realized that life is roughly 98% doing tasks you don't want to be doing and 2% fun and games. Thank god for Shiraz and the multitude of cheeses that are readily available in my local market that I can smear liberally on crackers during the tough times!
Real life as an adult can be just as cold and detrimental as high school ever was, maybe even more so. You're on your own. There's no safety net when you fall and there is always bills and chores that need tending to.
My mother always said, "Banks don't deal with sorrow and tears, they deal in dollars and cents."
This statement has echoed through my swimming thoughts time and time again because it is so very, very true.
Gone are the days of fresh laundry folded neatly on my bed when I got home from school along with the long hours of leisurely activities and naps on the sofa.
I guess there are always going to be people in life who are more popular than you, more successful, better looking, or just people who think they are better than you in general . I have grown accustomed to the fact that there are clicks and clubs that I was never and never will be allowed into and I'm okay with that.
Bottom line is insecurities don't just disappear as we grow older. We're all still desperately trying to find ourselves and struggling to make a name. Maybe you feel like your hair isn't blonde enough or maybe you feel like your breasts are too small or that your rear end is too large, maybe you feel like nobody takes you seriously. Nobody is ever 100% happy even if they say they are, they're probably lying. We are designed as human beings to compete, learn, and to try to do better than the generation before us. Some days it seems you can't win and other days you feel as if you've won the proverbial lottery of life.
I go to my job everyday and I work really hard because I am a proud and autonomous individual but there are always going to be those days where I wind up feeling unappreciated, overworked, over stressed, and most certainly underpaid!
I am a nurse, a wife, a pug mother, a store manager, a Print Studio specialist, a comedian, a writer, but first and foremost I am a wonderful person worth knowing and worth loving.
A person worth so much more than I rarely give myself credit for.
Being a nurse has taught me a lot of things. some good and some bad. I have seen birth and I have seen death and both can be a blessing as well as a heartache. Nudity no longer bothers me. The human body is an amazing invention. In fact I dare to say the human body is the single most beautiful piece of art I have ever laid eyes on no matter the size or shape that it's in.
It feels good to know I can offer a person dignity when their life is at it's end or that I can support and care for someone when they are sick, at their worst, and feeling like nobody understands. I think it is important to take pride and dedication in whatever job you are doing.
I really for the first time in a long time want more out of life.
Someone once told me that you may have to sacrifice your dreams along the way in life and do certain things just to get by and make ends meet. I understand this statement but my heart just won't let me believe in it. I simply can't sit back and settle for less than making my dreams a reality. Self happiness and satisfaction is the single most important thing one can obtain.
Life truly is a journey and I am grateful even for the bad times because all the scars emotionally and physically make for one hell of a story and it's my story.
Now and again when I make a mistake or I have a moment where I regret a decision that I have hastily made I hear my mother's voice mocking me, "I told you so!"
When my mother told me at the age of 16, "these are the best days of your life kido so enjoy them now!"
I thought to myself with a heartfelt cringe, "if these are the best days of my life I want to be struck by a bus right this very minute!"
Dramatic? Yes but I always had quite the theatrical flare and especially so when I was 16.
Being an adult isn't as great as my adolescent mind once thought it would be but it also isn't as boring and conformist as I thought it would end up either. I have realized that life is roughly 98% doing tasks you don't want to be doing and 2% fun and games. Thank god for Shiraz and the multitude of cheeses that are readily available in my local market that I can smear liberally on crackers during the tough times!
Real life as an adult can be just as cold and detrimental as high school ever was, maybe even more so. You're on your own. There's no safety net when you fall and there is always bills and chores that need tending to.
My mother always said, "Banks don't deal with sorrow and tears, they deal in dollars and cents."
This statement has echoed through my swimming thoughts time and time again because it is so very, very true.
Gone are the days of fresh laundry folded neatly on my bed when I got home from school along with the long hours of leisurely activities and naps on the sofa.
I guess there are always going to be people in life who are more popular than you, more successful, better looking, or just people who think they are better than you in general . I have grown accustomed to the fact that there are clicks and clubs that I was never and never will be allowed into and I'm okay with that.
Bottom line is insecurities don't just disappear as we grow older. We're all still desperately trying to find ourselves and struggling to make a name. Maybe you feel like your hair isn't blonde enough or maybe you feel like your breasts are too small or that your rear end is too large, maybe you feel like nobody takes you seriously. Nobody is ever 100% happy even if they say they are, they're probably lying. We are designed as human beings to compete, learn, and to try to do better than the generation before us. Some days it seems you can't win and other days you feel as if you've won the proverbial lottery of life.
I go to my job everyday and I work really hard because I am a proud and autonomous individual but there are always going to be those days where I wind up feeling unappreciated, overworked, over stressed, and most certainly underpaid!
I am a nurse, a wife, a pug mother, a store manager, a Print Studio specialist, a comedian, a writer, but first and foremost I am a wonderful person worth knowing and worth loving.
A person worth so much more than I rarely give myself credit for.
Being a nurse has taught me a lot of things. some good and some bad. I have seen birth and I have seen death and both can be a blessing as well as a heartache. Nudity no longer bothers me. The human body is an amazing invention. In fact I dare to say the human body is the single most beautiful piece of art I have ever laid eyes on no matter the size or shape that it's in.
It feels good to know I can offer a person dignity when their life is at it's end or that I can support and care for someone when they are sick, at their worst, and feeling like nobody understands. I think it is important to take pride and dedication in whatever job you are doing.
I really for the first time in a long time want more out of life.
Someone once told me that you may have to sacrifice your dreams along the way in life and do certain things just to get by and make ends meet. I understand this statement but my heart just won't let me believe in it. I simply can't sit back and settle for less than making my dreams a reality. Self happiness and satisfaction is the single most important thing one can obtain.
Life truly is a journey and I am grateful even for the bad times because all the scars emotionally and physically make for one hell of a story and it's my story.
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