Porn, Pie & Percocet
To be honest the last few days I have found myself Joyless and exhausted. I go through these melancholy moods in the winter months. BLAH BLAH BLAH seasonal affective disorder......... The holidays are a time of reflection, renewal, and resolution but somehow I always tend to feel lost within myself. I feel lost as to what my next step should be in this life and before I know it another year has gone by and I'm still hopelessly standing still. Change makes me uncomfortable and it always has. I talk about this often. I desperately hope that the admission of my "change complex" with make it feel less like a pair of skinny jeans and more like a pair of sweat pants. I can not seem to find the spirit of the season nor the joy and anticipation that can only be experienced through the eyes of a child. We are supposed to entertain, throw parties; eat, drink, and be merry but somehow all I feel right now is tired. The thought of spreading holiday cheer just makes me want to ta...