Human Pot Pie
I was watching Kevin Smith on Net Flix last night .
He does this bit about his old man dying screaming. He goes on to say how good of a person his old man was and how he didn't deserve to die that way.
He says at one point in his speech, "we're all probably going to go out screaming so the best thing to do prior to that is to try and pack that life with as much wonderfulness, fun, and productivity. Surround yourself with people who are going to help you fucking do that."
This got my wheels turning.
I had a conversation with a friend today and she asked me, "do you ever wonder if you will ever truly be happy?"
I smiled but not because I was making fun of her or laughing at her but because I ask myself that very same question all of the time.
I wonder what does it take to truly make oneself happy and fulfilled? Will I ever feel that I have done all that I have set forth to do in this life? Will I leave my mark or make an impact? Did I make the right choices?
In a world filled with so many wonderful things why is happiness so hard to find?
Each one of us is so unique and different but I feel each one of us also shares in this want for something else. This want for something more.
I mean on the surface much of us seem happy. I know I do but if you poke just below my crust you'll find a hot, bubbling, gravy; one that is filled with meat, potatoes, vegetables, and plenty of inner turmoil.
I like most of the population seem to always be 10 minutes away from a humanoid pot pie melt down. A melt down that rains hot gravy with meaty bits of lava all over the place and we all know that gravy is a real pain in the ass to get off of the bottom of the oven,
A "hot mess" as my dear friend likes to call me.
We all desire to do more or be more on some level though many of us, myself included lack the follow through.
In theory bettering oneself sounds like a great idea but doing this all while raising a family, getting married, going to school, running a household, getting divorced, walking the dog, paying the bills and going to work are all exhausting.
There is little time to have life when real life gets in the way.
Sure there are a lucky few who have their dream job, are independently wealthy or just blissfully ignorant.
I mean I'm not longing to be an ignoramus but wouldn't blocking out all that "what ifs?" and "should I's" be nice for a while???
We really need to learn to give ourselves a break. Why? WHY? WHY then is it so hard?
With human productivity and longevity on the rise one has to ask the question: are we lacking quality due to quantity? There are more people in this world than ever before and we live well into our 80's but that doesn't necessarily mean we are doing more or doing any better than our ancestors did.
I feel society and human beings in general have lost something along the way. We have almost everything we could ever need readily available and we can ask our iphone to answer any question we can cook up but why then are we still so miserable? More people are depressed. More people suffer from anxiety and addiction? Why is this happening to us? What went wrong and how do we change it?
Yes I do believe a person can change but can a nation change? Can a culture change? Can the world change? We evolve as we are nature but It's a slow and painful process and we have disconnected from the very nature who birthed us. Change takes a lot of time and time is not something that this hurried world has a moment for.
He does this bit about his old man dying screaming. He goes on to say how good of a person his old man was and how he didn't deserve to die that way.
He says at one point in his speech, "we're all probably going to go out screaming so the best thing to do prior to that is to try and pack that life with as much wonderfulness, fun, and productivity. Surround yourself with people who are going to help you fucking do that."
This got my wheels turning.
I had a conversation with a friend today and she asked me, "do you ever wonder if you will ever truly be happy?"
I smiled but not because I was making fun of her or laughing at her but because I ask myself that very same question all of the time.
I wonder what does it take to truly make oneself happy and fulfilled? Will I ever feel that I have done all that I have set forth to do in this life? Will I leave my mark or make an impact? Did I make the right choices?
In a world filled with so many wonderful things why is happiness so hard to find?
Each one of us is so unique and different but I feel each one of us also shares in this want for something else. This want for something more.
I mean on the surface much of us seem happy. I know I do but if you poke just below my crust you'll find a hot, bubbling, gravy; one that is filled with meat, potatoes, vegetables, and plenty of inner turmoil.
I like most of the population seem to always be 10 minutes away from a humanoid pot pie melt down. A melt down that rains hot gravy with meaty bits of lava all over the place and we all know that gravy is a real pain in the ass to get off of the bottom of the oven,
A "hot mess" as my dear friend likes to call me.
We all desire to do more or be more on some level though many of us, myself included lack the follow through.
In theory bettering oneself sounds like a great idea but doing this all while raising a family, getting married, going to school, running a household, getting divorced, walking the dog, paying the bills and going to work are all exhausting.
There is little time to have life when real life gets in the way.
Sure there are a lucky few who have their dream job, are independently wealthy or just blissfully ignorant.
I mean I'm not longing to be an ignoramus but wouldn't blocking out all that "what ifs?" and "should I's" be nice for a while???
We really need to learn to give ourselves a break. Why? WHY? WHY then is it so hard?
With human productivity and longevity on the rise one has to ask the question: are we lacking quality due to quantity? There are more people in this world than ever before and we live well into our 80's but that doesn't necessarily mean we are doing more or doing any better than our ancestors did.
I feel society and human beings in general have lost something along the way. We have almost everything we could ever need readily available and we can ask our iphone to answer any question we can cook up but why then are we still so miserable? More people are depressed. More people suffer from anxiety and addiction? Why is this happening to us? What went wrong and how do we change it?
Yes I do believe a person can change but can a nation change? Can a culture change? Can the world change? We evolve as we are nature but It's a slow and painful process and we have disconnected from the very nature who birthed us. Change takes a lot of time and time is not something that this hurried world has a moment for.
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