Just Like Me

It's an old hat that I wear all to well. It's the salt that I just can't stop licking. The sugar so sweet that it makes make me sick.

It not me is it? But it is me.. ...........Miserable. Negative. Lonely. Angry.                 

Me.

I don't have the right but then again don't I?

My pain is no greater nor is it any less than anyone else's.

It's all so subjective and I can't even take shelter in my own thoughts.

I DRIVE MYSELF CRAZY. 

I'm heavy and empty all the same. Struggling to fill a vast, black, void.

I am a black hole. Lost in space. Too much space? Not enough space? I can't figure me out.

Going through this beautiful life with unappreciative blindness.

I'm ignorant because I know too much. I feel too much. I think too much. 

I     

AM.

TOO.

MUCH.

I can't even take joy,  no matter how brief; within my own selfish melancholy.

I don't deserve it. I can't afford it. I won't allow it.

All there is, is time.

Not enough time. Too much time. Running out of time. Time is ticking away.  Time is Standing still.

I.

DO.

NOTHING.














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